I feel that our relationship is falling apart and I really don’t know what I can do for her. Girl, could you feel it? Am I the one who’s building a brick wall in between our relationship or both of us did that? A brick wall that our secret unable to go through?  This morning, I felt enjoyable with the environment around me, I sat under a tree and I started to think about her. Bie, are you trying to give up on me? Today, I went to the temple; the god said that I always think about girlfriend and don’t have the mood to study. I admitted that I always think about my girlfriend but doesn’t mean everything that the god said is true. I’ll prove it to my parents that the words from the god never be hundred percent true. If I have nothing, will you marry me? Never right? That’s the reason why I keep on improving myself and telling myself not to be lazy. I don’t want to lose her in future. These few days, I knew that I made you felt that lack of caring from me because of studies. Sorry, please don’t do that.