I feel that our relationship is falling apart and I really don’t know what I can do for her. Girl, could you feel it? Am I the one who’s building a brick wall in between our relationship or both of us did that? A brick wall that our secret unable to go through?  This morning, I felt enjoyable with the environment around me, I sat under a tree and I started to think about her. Bie, are you trying to give up on me? Today, I went to the temple; the god said that I always think about girlfriend and don’t have the mood to study. I admitted that I always think about my girlfriend but doesn’t mean everything that the god said is true. I’ll prove it to my parents that the words from the god never be hundred percent true. If I have nothing, will you marry me? Never right? That’s the reason why I keep on improving myself and telling myself not to be lazy. I don’t want to lose her in future. These few days, I knew that I made you felt that lack of caring from me because of studies. Sorry, please don’t do that. 

Life isn't about finding yourself , Life is about creating yourself . Various people have various goal of their own life. For me, I just figure out my life's target in these few days and I guess it wasn't that late for me to realize what I want to be. I'm seriously not in a mood since I heard a news from my sister that my mum had a light accident when she was working. I felt so sorry to her for not hard working in my studies.I'll try my best.

Steve jobs was one of the entrepreneur that always appear in Business Times and the Co Founder of Apple . I bet everyone wish to go to the level of financial freedom but who can make it ? I'm still very confuse about my life and i'm considering what kind of business field should I choose. Am I going to face the failure in future ? I don't know . 


Lets talk about my college life. Today i went JUSCO with friends. we went to eat sushi and I think I should give him a chance. I admit that sometimes you guys felt that I'm ego and you know ? I got the point dude .I started to be more aggressive when it comes to study or something else about my future. I just want to count on myself and not relying on anyone.Today I went home by bus and I realized that this is not the way i want to be. I won't give up no matter how hard it's going to be.


Furthermore, I am really sorry about the hard times I gave to my girl and I admit that I'm too mean when it comes to the words from my mouth. Bie, you go eat shit narh .Time will prove everything . I'll stay by your side and I love you . 

'Heartache'. Our relationship is falling apart. Did you noticed it ? I wish that I could put my feelings here so when  you see this and you could feel how I feel. I knew that you're also not in a good condition. Is it because of the incident on our conversation that made you heartbroken ? What if ? Please don't do that. 
Girl, can you tell me what happen to you ? Are you trying to let go ? 
The hardest situation I might have to  face is the day you left me. Are we meant to be like this ? 
I'm too afraid of losing you. I love you .

12 Feb 2012

'Love that we cannot have is the one that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest, and feels the strongest'.When it comes to the hardest moment , your beloved partner request for ' BREAK UP '. What would you say ? As you wish ? Whatever ? Okay ? For me , I would like to have a try by saying ' Please don't leave me' . Don't afraid to say no unless there's no choice. Let's talk about my own daily life.

My daily life routine is just sleeping, chatting, hang out with friends, attending classes and something else. Today, I woke up around 10 something and I realize ' Damn it , I'm late for my class' but yet still preparing myself like a tortoise. I'm so enjoyed with the purchase of books and something else in Jusco. Around 5 something, I went to Ipoh Parade with Wai ting for my Cleanser and it's happy to hang out with her. Hey wai ting , I had taken you as my bestie and I want to say thank you for fetching me.

At last, I would like to express my own feelings here to my girl. I know sorry doesn't mean anything  for this moment.I made you cried and I don't feel that apologize mean something to you. I'll try my best to treat you well and love you as much as I can. When I'm moody, hopefully that you will stay by my side and cheer me up.  Sometimes, I ignore you because i want for more. Act pig ? and I think it definitely works. I love you Yoong Jiteng.